| wow..i haven't been on this in a LONG time...i'm only on cause Myspace is down. hehe. Well I don't even know how to start these entries now days. Should i talk bout my day or just my life in general? So many questions and not enough answers. I found out a lot about me lately, some good..some bad..it depends on how you take things. I think I am going through another one of those maturing phases again, I can just feel it. I thought I grew up a lot, but then again, you can never mature fully. Some people might take this the wrong way and think that this entry is targeting them, and its not. I am just going through one of those phases where I have to figure out what I want without too many people getting hurt. I have different ways of handling things and sometimes my methods don’t always make sense, but that’s just I’m just a weird person overall. A memory came back to me recently to make me realize blocking out a memory doesn’t always solve the problem. I went back and analyze this event deeply and thought about it ever since. It made me realize my goals, my accomplishment and things that I come to regret that I didn’t do. I really need to set my piorties straight in what I need to get down without districtions. I don’t have a point to this, but that’s what xanga is rite? Just let your mind flow.
To be on the lighter side, this is the second time that my actions have been called “dick”, and its one right after another. I find that pretty funny, cause I realized that I am dick. I’m not going to lie, I do admit that I can be a dick when it comes to relationships. But I noticed its only in serious relationships where its exclusive. No one really knows how claustrophobic I feel, majority of the population enjoy having a monogamous relationship and it’s the most accepted form of relationship in society, but I just happen to be the odd ball. I really think I have this summer to be thankful for this way of thinking. Not only have I had the BEST summer so far, it opened up my mind to see not only relationships in a new perspective, but life. I am still young, why talk about marriage and things that is going to tie me down? Immature? No, I just know I have my youth to enjoy which a lot of my peers don’t realize. They always worry about “my boyfriend this” and “oh I’m going to marry him in ___ years” ..fuck…you have your whole life in front of you. Lean back and enjoy the ride.
To be on the more serious side, many people have neither asked me or thought of asking me “do you regret anything that you did?” answer: no I don’t. but I do regret things that I didn’t do…or who I didn’t do…lol. I believe everything that happens happen for a realize and to be honest, I have taken the worst events in my life and taught myself a lesson worth taught. I don’t regret past relationships because if it wasn’t for them, then I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I am thankful for everything I have learned and I just wanted to take the chance to thank everyone for the lessons you have taught me. Thank you.
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